You

When I hold your hand

it means every pain and lane

I will be your supporter man ..

When I walk holding your hand

it means living whole life in your way

sad, happy, dark, light in every way

in every corner of land.

When I kiss on your forehead it means

how much I care and How much I miss you.

When I kiss on your eyes it means

life is so beautiful when I see myself with you.

When I kiss on your cheek it means

I care you as my kid and life is so difficult without you.

When I kiss your lips it means

you are my guy and want to spend,

whole my life with no fight locking your lips just in silence.

When I kiss your neck it means

I want to breathe with you seducing you for romance

and cooperate with my feelings.

When I hug you it means

I am giving myself to you

Where every part of me

Belongs to you, respect you n trust you.

When I sleep on your chest means

am leaving all worries beside

and listening to your heart-beats by my name n only mine

listening to it, increases my confidence 

that you are my everything and whole world aside.

And

Nothing bothers, no fear, 

nothing..

just you and me together.

What happens when an apple falls ?

Yes its related to Newton's Law of gravity every one knows. But leaving about the scientific definition, John Travolata in "Phenomenon" Movie redefined it in a social and emotional way. It was touching and inspired me to write an emotional part of it which is again an experience in Rahul's Life my protagonist in this topic.

Last month I met my friend Rahul, This time he was little glummy not that greate smile in his face. Common Rahul what happened ? I remember..He use to tell about Lavanya, Yes his girl friend, his love he use to tell me how much he loves her, how he smiles having a glance at Lavanya, How he forgets all the pain he was carrying on his shoulders when he talks to Lavanya.

No it was one sided love may be i am wrong but it will soon be reveled. In reality they are friends between other friends but most of the time lavanya likes Rahul company and so does Rahul. But they are just friends like others but Rahul shares the secret with me and only me because he knows i can encrypt it 1024 bit. I insisted him to propose Lavanya but he couldn't. I know why ! He is a guy from Bhubansewar and a Bramhin and Lavanya.. u could guess I am sure. Rahul loves his mother a lot and to respect her wishes he was prepared to buy her a brahmin sober doll. So he studied hard to make a career far from attachments, emotions, attractions, infatuations, love or lust with any girls and now a SWE like me. He met Lavanya here through a common friend they became friends. Now Rahul doesn't have to make a career on an already made career so he is little light on girls but takes always careful step save him to keep his mothers wish.

Ok then why Lavanya didn't tell she loved him too ? I know her too, after all I am the common friend. She is also tied in her family rules and regulations she has got a very strict but loving family. I am sure she can sacrifice anything in front of this social regulations after all they have given her birth, fed her and turned her into such a beautiful girl with perfect talent. She has seen a very bad part of life in her past too. She has seen how their family has grown from rags to riches and how her mother supported her to study and made her stand on her feet. She definitely can't drown her parents wishes to marry her find a intra cast cocoon.

Anyway this is the story till now which i remembered before asking Rahul "what happend Rahul ?" He briefed his encounter with the Lavanya again. I can't be just friend to her. I don't know what would I do ? I said you guys always think of consequences and don't let your emotion or feeling come out of your golden caves. I know you both will live together (may not marry) even in another birth ! . But i really don't believe in new birth. I just don't believe in uncertain predictions. I believe in being happy live happily. Live each and every moment of the life thinking about the success and happiest part of the golden past. Don't forget to smile thinking about a sad consequence or the bad past. Why can't you guys think about the happy part of life. Why can't you guys think about sharing love or emotions even it is for a moment in your life. Why don't you live your that 2 days of your life so happily that you forget all the future of consequences or the Bad past. Why can't you think about the remembrance of the happiest time you spent with her or the most precious time you lived with her. Thinking about -- Ohh I have to keep my mother's wish, I can't ruin their faith on me, Ohh I can't hurt Lavanya ! -- you are just cheating yourself and loosing an unforgettable moment of life which would keep you happy in your old age remembering your encounter with Lavanya !

Actually I have said the same thing to Lavanya also sometime back when Rahul was not there but she has shown her girly attitude till now not been open up near Rahul her love. Its easy to say but difficult to implement for sure because human mind is programmed to work more on the sad part of life and they just get captured in the unforgettable part of mind but happiness is volatile that was her response. I had a quick response too, I am sure we can work on it and alter the pro-gramme and teach the brain to keep the happy part in its unforgettable storage and make us happy and left then the decision on her.

Love, Care, Feelings, Emotions are internal beauty of a human being. I think they have some balancing factor . which when is less in family or personal life they are fulfilled by others around. So its a usual phenomenon when people who are sad in family or their own personal life are easily fall prey of all these factors outside. But the religion the culture in India shows its ugly shine at the end and they have to let the apple fall in ground and eaten by bugs. So before it falls on ground eat it have it in your body so that it becomes the part of your body and you live with them till you die. May be many misunderstood Travolta's Dialog but I have delivered it to Rahul and Lavanya in my way, Let's wish for the happiness around them.

Beggars, Buggers and the Hinjras

It was obvious for me to expect a beautiful girl near my berth while travelling in Indian Rail like many of you. I don't know if the committed bachelors or the married have the same thoughts like me ! No it was a SLeeper Class berth, nothing to worry it was not my first time in SL class.. yes though its little odd when we compare the hygienic conditions in SL and AC. unhygenic ! yeah but I can compromise I told right it's not the first time for me :)

Anyway S8 and a middle berth seat I was assigned, it's ok. As I entered in to my cabin suddenly my eyes started looking for Her in the cabin, yeah its common being a bachelor I don't know if the single bachelor and the married have too the same thoughts ! but i was not lucky this time too. 3 bachelors of nearly my age out of them 2 on my side berths and another in the front berth. One Swamiji (Iskon follower) was sitting near him and one parents with their 3-4 years old Son on side berths. And a Girl near the window seat near Swamiji. The train whistled and started running and slowly gained the momentum. After few minutes giving a good smile to our fellow bachelor and the Swamiji we started talking about the usual topics like college and the journey and the purpose. The Girl didn't yet partcipate ! kammath was his name looks like a don't care guy on my front seat with a nikkar (tight half pant) and fcuk brand t-shirt, with his i-pod in his ears, he hardly participated in our discussions too. But surely the Kid was the 2nd fiddle and now the Kid too also gave cute smile to me. He was a good observer and a question bank, what is this why is this, where is this, there was also some yes/no questions with his broken and simple intelligence firing at his Father.

I liked Swamiji's talk on God, 4 Dhama in India, culture, religion the Kaliyug and 2012 end of it etc. It was quite interesting and Lavanya (what a sweet name !) the girl also joined now in my discussion with swamiji. One person with very dirty clothes, lame, uncombed hair looked like for more than years he didn't comb, how could he he had also broken fingers appeared and stood in front of our cabin and many of us offered cents to him. In the mean while the TTE with his black suit appeared and asked for ticket and the identification proof to every one and the tickets were signed by the TTE.

Now the kid asked his Father

what is this ? -- looking at the irctc ticket in his fathers right hand

It's a Ticket u need to buy it to travel in Train -- father said .

then What is this ? -- Son again

It's a photo identity Card -- father said, now the ticket is signed by TTE.

Son again, with his sweet murmur low voice pulled the Father's shirt and pointing to the dirty fellow asked who is this, TTE didn't ask ticket to him ? The father in his low voice a Begger doesn't need a ticket they don't have money !

Beggar's business works well in train because customers are more, one of our bachelor yelled with a smile !

Now one after the another station passes more and more beggers followed, begged, being offerred, but looking at their dirty dress and uncombed hairs the Kid is smart and knows now that they don't need ticket and photo identity card. We are still much involved in the Swamiji's stories and counter questions on religion and God. She started looking outside the window. One of our bachelor shows all most 12 teeths to another bachelor and told something in his ear. I was sure he gestured the body of the beauty. It was really much attractive with her tight jeans and v-neck t-shirt. Lavanya Pulled up her v-neck collar little up because I believe other bachelors sight was about to fall straight at her cleavage. Hope my fellow bachelors would have already measured it while we were in our discussion. Lavanya was already bit friendly and exchanged many arguments, laughs and smiley at me during our discussions.

Now two good looking woman with quite good physic and sharee appeared one in turmeric covered face and another escorting her and asking people to help her by offering money as she was an orphan and she is getting married soon. I wondered who was she then to her ?. I din't donate. One guy donated and now the Son again fired his question to the Father..

papa she also doesn't need a ticket because she is asking money ? wow what a smart boy he can now define beggar very well !

Yes she is a beggar -- Father

but she is not looking like a beggar, she is well dressed and yellow face ! -- Son (there is still a little confusion in his mind and now he wants to clarify from his father)

No response -- Father

Bugger's business also works well in train because customers are more , Kammath had quick response with a smile at the kid. I think now Kid is smart enough to identify a beggar and a bugger.

Train approached one station and stop for few minutes, started again. Swamiji again started You are born to do something good for this planet, keep it clean and green. God has created the most intelligent creature and the most complex system on earth the human after millions of years. He meant that dianosorous extincted 65million years ago but No human was there, Couldn't have God created Human at that time ? So Humans in last 2-3 hundred years polluted this world to such an extent that world is unstable now and its going to end by 2012. Yes I think Swamiji was right. Life is present in this earth from milions of years ago. There were gaint dianosorous also present in long past, God might have created this ultimate creature the Humans to end the world may be with an experimental purpose. Some boys with dirty cloths again started cleaning with the coach, no no not listening to Swamijis words but it is what is they do with their shirts and expecting some penny in return. we were generous now to offer some penny after all they are working and asking money it's ok. I think the Kid would have already noticed their work for money but where the railway cleaners gone ohh once in a 24 hour journey they appear and clean. most of their work is done by this passengers paid cleaners why do they have to I thought. Lavanya also aggreed on swamijis words. We are now more comfortable with each other.

Suddenly a peculiar sound was heard. Everyone.. but more of our bachelors became cautious and try to clearly hear the sound if it was a hoax. But now the sound was clear to be a clap but the unique ness of the clap was too clear to tell us that it was the Hinjra's (eunuch) sign or warning what ever you can say. Our bachelor unit was now too much concerned another 2 bachelor saw each other and started unwinding each other. One jumped up the upper berth another ran out towards the toilet and kammath was unaffected didn't care it, he was busy in his music. The parents, kid, Swamiji including Lavanya also didn't feel of any risk. I had to act prude in front of others after all running away is like an immaturity. One black strong, fat and the stout Hinjra appeared before us with another leanly built woman acting like hinjra. I can't explain it but anyone could confirm that she was not a Hinjra still she accompanied them. But this time one hand pulling already half of the sharee from the left leg and in the right hand pointing me said the Hinjra "eee chikne de re .." Then I acted as if I didn't hear or seen them. she came closer pulling up the sharee more and now the sound was more louder "eee Chikne suna nehi kya paisa dee rreee ...." I denied now and now Hinjara came near me removed my spec and pulled some of my well combed hairs and pressed my chin and murmured some unimaginable words and left me throwing my spec on my lap. Hinjra now went near Kammath, he smiled. Hinjra said "ee Hero paisa de rree" with a smile. Now Hinjra used the left hand for some other purpose. It just went on to kammath's holy cross ohh shit.. it started measuring its length surely because in his nikkar it was little prominent. Then the Hinjra smiled at kammath and in his right hand squizzed kammath's teat. This shameless guy really didn't care anything rather gave a nice smile at the Hinjra and the Hinjra gave a kiss to this lucky Guy with a nice smile and left off.

In the mean while the Kid fired his questions again to his much talented Father

papa who is them, he is very fat and wearing sharee, put lipstik also- May be doesn't know yet that was a Hinjra ! but kid still says 'he'

Shsuuuuuu -- Father with his finger on his lips because Hinjra might hear and mind his Son

Son didn't stop

You know he has lot of money in his small wallet, he is very rich, still he is asking money ?

He also doesn't need ticket or photo identity card ?

No -- Father said

And now he has no talent but just one 'No' word to explain to his good kid that they are eunuch, Hinjra's business also works well in train because customers are more.

Every one was so silent till the nearest next station. I couldn't even face Lavanya's face for some time, she was busy in her out window explorations. Our another bachelor was laughing at me and kammath was happy hiding up and started telling some other glories but before he saluted kammath for his measured length silently. We arrived the next station Lavanya stood up collected her belongings and got down. Looked at me but I was uneasy still to say bye because I wasn't prepared even to leave her, we haven't yet shared anything personal. But now could manage to say bye but forgot to ask her number or contacts. I missed one beautiful encounter, it could have been led to a greater relation, all my imaginations got buried. Swamiji asked me to lodge a complain in the next station against these Hinjra for harassment or he insisted me to write a letter to our Railway Minister.

Train started Lavanya's face disappeared from the train window. And I could hear our another bachelor's angry voice from the toilet "Who the bloody dick ?, That mother fucker shit in side the toilet giving a signature, what a fuck man there is a latrin inside but that bloody fucker, rascal has shit on the side of it. ohh shit, fuck fuckk fuuckk, Ohh God when these Buggers will learn ethics, clenlyness !! ". I haven't heard so many f* words in a sentence so far. Thank God Lavanya has left otherwise it would be one more shameful moment.

I didn't lodge a complain in the next station but promised Swamiji that I would write a letter to our Railway Minister. Till now I haven't written it !! Don't know when I will write about my Indian Rail Sleeper Class S8 Coach experience with those unidentified and without ticket beggars, buggers and Hinjras.